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"Silhouette" Couldn't' find a better set of words to hit it home.  "Silhouette"- Owl City I'm tired of waking up in tears 'Cause I can't put to bed these phobias and fears I'm new to this grief I can't explain But I'm no stranger to the heartache and the pain The fire I began is burning me alive But I know better than to leave and let it die I'm a silhouette asking every now and then "Is it over yet? Will I ever feel again?" I'm a silhouette chasing rainbows on my own But the more I try to move on, the more I feel alone So I watch the summer stars to lead me home I'm sick of the past I can't bring back A jumble of footprints and steps I sometimes wish I could retrace The mountain of things I will never regret Is a vile reminder that I would should just forget (no matter where I go) The fire I began is burning me alive But I know better than to leave and let it die I...

The simple " Zen Mantras" that make such complete sense

I read these the other as I was browsing FB.....and so what was I thinking when I read them 1st ..  1. Do one thing at a time - really why ? what happened to the awesome " multi tasking" mantra? 2. Do it slowly and deliberately - " Complete Mindfulness " - Hmmmm.. agree ,"what's that?..."Om Hari Om...?  3. Do it completely -yeah ok, get it !! 4. Do Less - you meant sleep :) 5. Put space between things 6. Develop Rituals - make ppts, run with anaya in one hand and her bag on the other to put her on the bus.. 7. Designate time for certain things - E.X.E.R.C.I.S.E. ???????????  stop hinting just say it , go on ..SAY IT  8. Devote time to sitting - but the iwatch says " Stand up now" , confused I tell you the world is:)) 9. Smile and serve others -..Sawadeeeekkaaaaaaa 10.Make cleaning and cooking become meditation - finally someone recognises my OCD obsession.. 11.Think about what is necessary- At this everythi...

A special moment - noticing the child within each of us that never DIES!

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This is an incident that is more than a year and half old, but has stayed with me since, I have only been able to write this piece in parts and today as I try and revive my blog, a promise to myself for this year , there was no better unpublished, incomplete piece that I could complete. Some of the best moments I have ever experienced as a mother are when Naina comes back from school , sometimes so funny that we fall down rolling on the floor , sometimes talking like 2 friends who feel so apart from 7:45 am - 4:30 pm and sometimes so overwhelming that they bring tears to my eyes. Naina had her PE (Physical Exercise) session some thursday ..it seemed just like a normal thursday routine, none the less...I managed to get back on time from work to pick her up...she jumped out of the bus with a sheet of paper in her hand which was all rolled up. So I thought it was just one of her play sheets and didn't pay too much heed. Bhatak , she jumped right into my lap from her bus, beaming ear ...

The inner voice

I have been thinking of a few things over the past few days, about future choices that I need to make going forward, getting back to work, how to manage work and home, my girls , schedules , timelines, holidays ....homework ... do this or not do that .....the list can go on and on...and must admit its not easy , although its very everyday...and hajjar people deal with this daily ! Everyone has their own way of dealing with these situations, I get into a discussion and then introspection mode , Andy just goes for a walk and has it all figured out, some people meditate, some cry ..get into a shell of their own.... some just seem to be so in control of what comes at them .  There is a certain anxiety over a few things that I need to figure out given a lot of variables are currently not in my control at this point in time and there are some things that no one just no one but you can do for yourself.. it's you who will need to take the decision / make that choice  and it is ju...

A new city, a new home , new experiences, A NEW YOU!

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Yesterday one of our good friends left singapore to settle base at Dubai for a few years, it leaves me feeling a lil' sad and yet excited as they explore a new phase in their lives .  I asked Reema a number of times over the last 2 days, how she felt abt the move, was she excited, nervous, thrilled, sad, apprehensive... mixed feelings...and the only reply I got from her was, " Sim its just a move, i am happy , but "...JUST A MOVE. I kept telling her imagine as you board and take the flight today, when you wake up you will be in another country ( as normal as it sounds each time we travel) to live there , not as a tourist but as a resident ..exciting , very exciting. Exploring life in a new city, new culture,  new people, new friends, new language, new place ...aha! Just imagine when you open the curtains in your hotel room , a new skyline , a new part of the earth welcomes you into its world....NICE Am not quite sure if I was really able to convey the depth , None th...

"Simple" is the word

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Its funny how sometimes just such simple everyday ingredients that we use to cook can add that much needed and exciting extra zing, flavor to the daily kind of boring food menu. So the way it unfolded was that our helper Grace had made sauteed baby spinach with Garlic and chicken with some dry chilli's ..I wanted to have rice , but not plain boiled rice..there started the issue. I didn't know what I wanted to do with the rice,  but wanted it to look yum, have some beautiful colors and go with the overall food on the table. Taste a lil Indian and not very local hawker center type of food. Can you believe it, this is just rice an d look at the fuss! In Naina's shortcut language, I opened fridge, saw , took out and sizzlllleed the rice with the first 3 things that came to my hands.. I like to call it- Bose's version of ginger rice. I took some grated ginger which was religiously kept ready for my chai, took one bird eye red chilli also know as Thai red chilli hot a...

Gracious , Beautiful Vietnam !

Its been a long long time since I wrote, but my recent visit to Vietnam has left me feeling so so so alive making me realise that I must continue to write and capture all the beautiful moments, thoughts and feelings as I live each experience, to be able to relive these with my family once I grow old and for my children to look back at once they grow older. The one thing that has stayed with me about the country is the warmth, the smiling faces, despite their past and history. People there were just so welcoming to all tourists who were there to explore their country, proud of what they create and where they belong. People there thought we were crazy to travel with a 2.5 month old into villages, and rickshaws and thanks to Anaya we got royal treatment :)  The holiday has just left me for wanting more , more of travel and more of life!