Coming ALIVE!

This is an incident that is more than a year and half old, but has stayed with me since, I have only been able to write this piece in parts and today as I try and revive my blog, a promise to myself for this year , there was no better unpublished, incomplete piece that I could complete. Some of the best moments I have ever experienced as a mother are when Naina comes back from school , sometimes so funny that we fall down rolling on the floor , sometimes talking like 2 friends who feel so apart from 7:45 am - 4:30 pm and sometimes so overwhelming that they bring tears to my eyes. Naina had her PE (Physical Exercise) session some thursday ..it seemed just like a normal thursday routine, none the less...I managed to get back on time from work to pick her up...she jumped out of the bus with a sheet of paper in her hand which was all rolled up. So I thought it was just one of her play sheets and didn't pay too much heed. Bhatak , she jumped right into my lap from her bus, beaming ear ...

I have been thinking of a few things over the past few days, about future choices that I need to make going forward, getting back to work, how to manage work and home, my girls , schedules , timelines, holidays ....homework ... do this or not do that .....the list can go on and on...and must admit its not easy , although its very everyday...and hajjar people deal with this daily ! Everyone has their own way of dealing with these situations, I get into a discussion and then introspection mode , Andy just goes for a walk and has it all figured out, some people meditate, some cry ..get into a shell of their own.... some just seem to be so in control of what comes at them .  There is a certain anxiety over a few things that I need to figure out given a lot of variables are currently not in my control at this point in time and there are some things that no one just no one but you can do for yourself.. it's you who will need to take the decision / make that choice  and it is ju...

Yesterday one of our good friends left singapore to settle base at Dubai for a few years, it leaves me feeling a lil' sad and yet excited as they explore a new phase in their lives .  I asked Reema a number of times over the last 2 days, how she felt abt the move, was she excited, nervous, thrilled, sad, apprehensive... mixed feelings...and the only reply I got from her was, " Sim its just a move, i am happy , but "...JUST A MOVE. I kept telling her imagine as you board and take the flight today, when you wake up you will be in another country ( as normal as it sounds each time we travel) to live there , not as a tourist but as a resident ..exciting , very exciting. Exploring life in a new city, new culture,  new people, new friends, new language, new place ...aha! Just imagine when you open the curtains in your hotel room , a new skyline , a new part of the earth welcomes you into its world....NICE Am not quite sure if I was really able to convey the depth , None th...

Its funny how sometimes just such simple everyday ingredients that we use to cook can add that much needed and exciting extra zing, flavor to the daily kind of boring food menu. So the way it unfolded was that our helper Grace had made sauteed baby spinach with Garlic and chicken with some dry chilli's ..I wanted to have rice , but not plain boiled rice..there started the issue. I didn't know what I wanted to do with the rice,  but wanted it to look yum, have some beautiful colors and go with the overall food on the table. Taste a lil Indian and not very local hawker center type of food. Can you believe it, this is just rice an d look at the fuss! In Naina's shortcut language, I opened fridge, saw , took out and sizzlllleed the rice with the first 3 things that came to my hands.. I like to call it- Bose's version of ginger rice. I took some grated ginger which was religiously kept ready for my chai, took one bird eye red chilli also know as Thai red chilli hot a...

Its been a long long time since I wrote, but my recent visit to Vietnam has left me feeling so so so alive making me realise that I must continue to write and capture all the beautiful moments, thoughts and feelings as I live each experience, to be able to relive these with my family once I grow old and for my children to look back at once they grow older. The one thing that has stayed with me about the country is the warmth, the smiling faces, despite their past and history. People there were just so welcoming to all tourists who were there to explore their country, proud of what they create and where they belong. People there thought we were crazy to travel with a 2.5 month old into villages, and rickshaws and thanks to Anaya we got royal treatment :)  The holiday has just left me for wanting more , more of travel and more of life! 

My morning are rushed and hurried, and each time i am in a hurry , rushing all over God ensures i get every single traffic signal on the road, there is bumper to bumper traffic and in general everything just seems and takes longer than usual ...Sigh L Just this morning, there i was rushing again , struggling to get the right entry card among the in numerous cards lying in the car to get into the building where i park, and ready to shout at the security guard there, at not being helpful enough by just letting me go...blah blah , and that's when he just smiled at me and opened the gate and said good morning !! OOO ....... there went out of the window went my anger , frustration at being late and before i could smile back or say thank you, the cars honking behind me made me rush ahead . But the smile stayed with me, its has since…. As i parked and walked back to exit the building and get into my office across the street, i took a pause, stepped back and observed this guard at ...

Being loved unconditionally is probably one of the biggest high's in life a nd one such feeling is that of being a mother. It was just the other day when naina was born and now here she is standing tall all of 3. In her own way she lets me know what i mean to her and its just amazing the clarity with which she expresses her feelings. The other day i went out for a girl's day out and with Andy traveling most of the time , i took naina along. I picked her up from day care and off we went with my help. Stop after stop picking up the team, naina kept saying " Mumma i want to go home, please lets go home and at that time the strict mother was at her best ..so all is said was " Naina you need to listen to ma, and so please behave yourself and be a good girl". Tantrum knows no time or place :) does it?? however the evening was ok , we hogged, naina played. On the way back naina refused to settle into anyone Else's lap, she wanted my lap and with me driving it wa...